Jumpy Feelings

Well it's the end of October, year sure is going by fast, yet I the only thing I accomplished so far is failure and more failure. It seems like whatever I do, it's like a step backward and when I try to fix it it's 5 more steps backwards. By then, the situation would've already been labeled "Failed". I can't seem to decide if I want to keep going for this girl or just wait. She doesn't seem like a keeper but what I really learned and experience first hand is that people are usually never what they look like. Maybe she can be a keeper if I a turn a blind eye on her other side? I don't know, I gave too many people chances and turned a blind on nearly everyone's corrupted sides. I think I trust people too much. I can't really tell who to trust and who to believe. I want to know, what am I to you guys?

I started to notice the mistakes I made these past few years of high school and Jr. High. These mistakes pile up and I always try to fix it but we all know that a mistake in the past is always futile to fix. But did you know that you can actually fix it? It's very simple to fix the mistakes in the past. The only thing you need to do is do the very best you can do fix it. Just don't say it's futile and leave it alone. At least put some effort into trying to fix it.

For some strange reasons I get these jumpy feelings or being bipolar as you call it. I felt depress and felt like I was the outcast of the world. I felt angry and that everything was against me. I felt proud like I just accomplished my dreams. I felt like I was a burden to everyone and just an outcast again. I don't know, these feelings become painful afterward and the only person I can turn to to talk about these feelings is no one but this BlogSpot.

Here's the song I was gonna sing for you Jenny, but I guess we don't talk as a much as we did the other days. So I guess I won't be able to sing you this song. Well here's the shitty lyrics.

Hey there Jenny
What’s it like knowing a strange guy?
But I'm sympathetic and nice
But girl, tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
I never seen a girl as pretty as you
I swear it's true

Hey there Jenny
Don't you worry about me being strange.
I’ll be sympathetic and nice.
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice, it's my disguise
I'm by your side

Oh why did you steal my drink
Oh why did you steal my drink
Oh why did you steal my drink
Oh why did you steal my drink
Why did you steal my drink?

Hey there Jenny
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me, girl
It’s going to get better with me here,
It’ll always be fun
We'll be friends that you never expected
My word is good

Hey there Jenny
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I sang to you
Would take your breath away
I'd sing it all
Even more in love with you I’ll be
You’ll hear it all

Oh it’s the best I can do for you
Oh it’s the best I can do for you
Oh it’s the best I can do for you
Oh it’s the best I can do for you
A sympathetic nice guy doesn’t seem to fit me
But I’ll always smile and give you a hand
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That they aren’t friends like you and me
Jenny I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And we smile at each other with laughter

Hey there Jenny
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You'll know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Jenny here's to you
This one's for you

I wish you best of luck
And for sure you’ll always smile
And remember don’t you miss me because
I’ll always be there for you like a nice guy
I’ll always be there.

nothing much.

So it has been about 2 weeks since I blogged but ever since then I met some great new people! Did some crazy things and died in school studying and doing stupid shit. But other than that PARANORMAL ACTIVITY sucks so much. Not gonna spoil it but it's only good for the last 30 minutes. I give it a D-!!! So far nothing much but school and so so. I have to say one thing that was really interesting was I asked this girl out and it's been a month and we haven't gone on a date not even one single one. So I called it off. My friend told me I did something stupid and should just wait. But I don't really think so. Since I don't feel like going on a date with her and so so afterward, since I met this cute girl recently. O well w/e, gonna let my life glide and see what happens.