whoopie doo

So like today kinda pissed me off cause someone wasn't at the mall and didn't answer my calls or replied back for texting. But yea w/e. Then went to a card shop bought some packs. Pulled 80 bucks worth of cards. Apprently the two cards that is worth 80$ total isn't easy to get! so i guess im a lucky guy. Then i also got my blue highlights for my hair. Faded blue actually. But since my hair wasn't long enough i had to have dots of blue instead of stripes. Too bad i can't take pictures with it because it's dark enough to blend in with my black hair SAD FACE. Then i gotta get ready to go on vacation on sunday and leave throughout the summer. Really sad, i was hoping to spend it with mustache girl jimmy and nicole but apprently i guess not. o well today was like neutral, happy n mad. Oh then i also go to play tennis realizing that it's really hard. Then played basketball and handball. Pretty active today. Wheee

It's finished and over with, that's what I thought

After today the one I truly loved would forever be gone. No longer would I exist in her memory. I thought it would be easy. I thought I can toughen myself and tell her good bye forever. But I was wrong. It was like my world shattered into a million pieces and all there is left is a new a world without her, without happiness. But still that new world can't replace the happiness and the hope she gave me. Sadness trails me but I will have to just reform and toughen myself. Never would I forget her nor forgive myself. But what has to be done, has to be done. All there is left before I leave is to see her become a successful student and graduating high school without me dragging her down. After that, I can truly move on with my life.

Good bye forever and sorry.