So like after 2 days of awesome chatting and accidentally talking about my feelings for a while. I finally realize and came to my senses that I can't score a not even or just a date with her. Why should I keep pushing myself and picking myself up for her. I can't believe I'm actually saying this but she's obsolete to me. And for the next two years I'm going to reform and try to dictate myself instead of letting my love do it for me. Truly loved 2 girls and both gone. I actually wished, I really didn't meet her and interacted with her. Like hell it slowly rises. Like poison it slowly kills. Thanks Gentlemen Production friend for reading my blogs and caring. I'm sorry I can't really talk about this even though I talked about it to your friend. But yea thanks for reading. Appreciate it.
Oh yea, summer break is almost there. After final exams I know for sure, I'm going to be free until high school is over.
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You're always important; never forget that. EVER.
I know I can't help you, even though I am your best friend and we, of course, do look out for each other, but I feel like a shit, too man. When you called, I thought you were laughing, soon to realize that they were tears. As you started speaking about your problems, I realzed my problems I had, which are exactly similar to yours in the past. I know how you feel, but I feel so damn useless as a friend not being able to help you. I feel so damn useless not having money or the freedom to buy a ticket to go over there. I feel, Nicole feel, we all feel useless, but we WANT to be there for you.
Sometimes I damn my self for living so far away. Most the times I damn myself for being so useless to you. All the time, I want to help you, but I can't.
I know she's important to you, but now you feel a gap in your chest, and your body feels heavy from crying, but Alex, I need to make you know I'm there for you.
One day, I hope the perfect girl will find you, or you find her. I always want you to have the best in life, even better than me.
Hell, I wanted to entrust you with my Lightsworn deck if I ever gave up, and you know how precious those are to me!
Damn, man. I wish I could help you, I truly do, but living 800 miles away doesn't help.
As a best friend, no, brother, I just want to say man, even if nobody cares about how you feel, I'll always be there to try to help.
A future note, if even something happens to you, call me. I'll just walk out of class and pick up and leave whereever I'm at if needed to. Just call, hangup, and call again. That'll be the signal if anything comes up.
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